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Friday, July 2nd, 2004
02 Jul 2004|10:53pm
2 Fell apart. | Let me be your memory.
Saturday, June 12th, 2004
12 Jun 2004|10:56pm
__Does anyone C A R E anymore?«
I quit life for good.


I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah


Current Mood: numb
Let me be your memory.
Thursday, June 10th, 2004
10 Jun 2004|09:51pm
__But I can't deny, can't even try. 'Cause I know inside, butterflies don't lie. «
»».So I want this answer to be from all of you.««

»Do I seem different to any of you? I mean, have I been acting different lately? Have you noticed me not smiling or laughing as much? Or have I been acting more serious about things? What about looking different? Do I seem the least bit different to you?

»I've been hearing a lot of people telling me how much more different I've been, lately. Some of my friends are telling me that I've been so much more down, lately; That I'm not smiling as much, or laughing at the things I used to laugh at. Then I get comments from people, saying how pretty I look.. Never used to get that, in the longest time.

»But the one thing I must agree with is that I have grown more mature in the past few weeks, maybe. I was studying for all my exams for COUNTLESS hours every day, and now that school's out, I've been kind of mellowed out, and I've been trying to make everyone happier, but I don't know. I seem to be failing at that. But oh well. At least I'm trying, right?

»Fred IMed me a while ago, saying ``Breathe`` by Michelle Branch came on, and he felt like he should talk to me, ... about me. ._. I dunno, it was a bit awkward at first, but then again, it was good to actually talk to him again. I missed having conversations with him. It's been a while, since I've seen him, too.

»So basically I've been content for a while, aside from all those things, that I wrote, above.

»I MISS YOU ALL. WE NEED TO HANG OUT SOMEDAY SOON.

»here's a song for all of you. it makes me sad whenever I hear it, and I've been playing it on repeat. Doesn't that tell you something?Collapse )«

»This song makes me sad ._.
Let me be your memory.
10 Jun 2004|08:33pm
You never realize what you had until it's gone.



Why couldn't I realize that earlier, than now? :[

Current Mood: blank
Let me be your memory.
Sunday, May 30th, 2004
30 May 2004|10:20pm
» hello, goodbye, it's all the same to me.
Is this how it'll always be with me? It seems like whenever I have a boyfriend and we break up or something, then we barely talk anymore. Or see each other, for that matter.

I was talking to Jonathan earlier. I was asking him about what he was doing tomorrow for Memorial Day, and somehow, we got on the topic of when he came over on Memorial Day a couple years ago, when we were still together. We started remembering all these different memories we had from that day, and it made me realize that I sometimes really do miss those days. He was a sweet person. Sometimes I wonder why I ever let him go...

But then there is Fred. We do talk every once in a while, but as far as keeping UP with it all, we always end up stopping the conversation seconds after we start it. ... Don't ask why. I'm confused, myself.

So I slept over Jess' house last night. We had the most fun, oh my God. We stayed up until 8AM roleplaying, and then we slept in from then, until about 3PM. Now, because of sleeping all day, I am completely awake, no yawns available. ;* Clearly Jess rocks, because we had so much fun last night. AYUMI AND BENJI FINALLY KISSED YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY. ... Don't ask about that, either. Only Jess and I would understand. <3

She also convinced me into getting my own account for antishift.net, so now I can upload my pictures and crap for the world to see. n_n

And I also decided a couple days ago that I'm gonna be the mature person that I am, and not care about what people think or say about me anymore. If I'm happy with the way I am, why waste my time on people who aren't?



Sometimes we don't realize what we had until it's gone.


Current Mood: busy
Let me be your memory.
Saturday, May 15th, 2004
15 May 2004|08:43pm
wow do I feel like this whenever you cross my mind
If I had just one tear running down your cheek
Maybe I could cope
Maybe I’d get some sleep
If I had just one moment at your expense
Maybe all my misery would be well spent

Could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that you’re feeling a little more pain
I gave, now I'm wanting something in return
So cry just a little for me

If your love could be caged
Honey I would hold the key
And conceal it underneath
The pile of lies you handed me
And you’d hunt those lies
They’d be all you’d ever find
That’d be all you’d have to know
For me to be fine

And you'd cry a little
And die just a little
And baby I would feel just a little less pain
I gave, now I'm wanting something in return
So cry just a little for me

Give it up baby
I hear your doin’ fine
Nothings gonna’ save me
Til I see it in your eyes
Some kind of heartache honey
Give it a try
I don’t want pity
I just want what is mine

Yeah

could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that you're feeling a little more pain
I gave, now I'm wanting something in return
So cry just a little for me

Yeah

Cry just a little for me
Whoa whoa
Could you cry a little for me
hmmm yeah yeah




oh yeah. I got my ears pierced for the first time... if anyone cares. =P
Though none of you probably do, 'cause no one even reads, or comments me.

I'm gonna give up and not even bother commenting you anymore.

Current Mood: blah
Let me be your memory.
Monday, May 10th, 2004
10 May 2004|10:38pm










What do people see when they look at me?


Current Mood: blank
Let me be your memory.
Sunday, May 9th, 2004
09 May 2004|08:21pm
So I love how I die on new journals I make.

Sorry, kids. I'll try my best to update more.

Why does no one comment me. =[

As Jess would say, I quit life.

This song is sad.

Kay bai.

Current Mood: ditzy
Let me be your memory.
Monday, April 26th, 2004
26 Apr 2004|09:50pm
#2 + new Rikku icons
No more tears of joy
No more friendly boys
What's with them all of a sudden?
Treating us like toys...
They say they really care...
But in truth, they know they won't be there
In my mind, I hear angels sing
Too bad I can't write anything like that..
This is the best I can do until my sorrows fade away
My songs seem to be so sad, nowadays..

No more cries of laughter
No more wishes; dreams
What's with me all of a sudden?
Giving up on everything...
I tell you that I'll live
When in truth, I'm dying inside
From the pain I've given myself
In my head, I hear you whisper
Too bad you can't hear me scream
This is all I can do until my sorrows fade away..
My songs seem to be so sad, nowadays..

But then again, I'm always sad, nowadays..
What am I supposed to do with myself?
I'm lost in my mind, and I can't find a way out..
Too many thoughts have taken hold..
It's warm outside, my heart is still cold
I'm so afraid; I've gotta be bold
I can't be held back; I've gotta let go..
I've gotta let you go..
But you're the only reason I write these songs..
These stupid sad songs..
These.. Stupid love songs..

No more tears of joy
No more friendly boys
What's with them all of a sudden?
Treating us like toys...
They say they really care...
But in truth, they know they won't be there
In my mind, I hear angels sing
Too bad I can't write anything like that..
This is the best I can do until my sorrows fade away
My songs seem to be so sad, nowadays..

No more cries of laughter
No more wishes; dreams
What's with me all of a sudden?
Giving up on everything...
I tell you that I'll live
When in truth, I'm dying inside
From the pain I've given myself
In my head, I hear you whisper
Too bad you can't hear me scream
This is all I can do until my sorrows fade away..
My songs seem to be so sad, nowadays..

Current Mood: crappy
Let me be your memory.
26 Apr 2004|09:07pm
sucks, don't it? another sad song.. another is gonna be following it shortly
You sit there, still so calm
You demand to know why it's taking me so long
But it's not that easy when I want to cry
It's way too hard, when I don't know why

I can't speak.. I can't retreat
My heart feels frozen, but it still beats
I feel so numb, inside my feet
I want to move, but I can't leave..

You stand up, pacing back and forth
I wish I knew if you still think
I'm worth the fights you used to make.
It used to be a piece of cake,
but now I don't know what more I can take

I can't speak.. I can't retreat
My heart feels frozen, but it still beats
I feel so numb, inside my feet
I want to move, but I can't leave..
I can't talk; Get things clear anymore
My head hurts, it's spinning around like never before
I turn the knob, I open the door
I really wish I knew you more..

You sit there, still so calm
You demand to know why it's taking me so long
But it's not that easy when I want to cry
It's way too hard, when I don't know why

I can't speak.. I can't retreat
My heart feels frozen, but it still beats
I feel so numb, inside my feet
I want to move, but I can't leave..
I can't speak.. I can't retreat
My heart feels frozen, but it still beats
I feel so numb, inside my feet
I want to move, but I can't leave..
I can't talk; Get things clear anymore
My head hurts, it's spinning around like never before
I turn the knob, I open the door
I really wish I knew you more..
[[ to fade ]]

Current Mood: sad
Let me be your memory.
Saturday, April 24th, 2004
24 Apr 2004|04:03pm
Bahaha I find it so amusing how I never write in here. I totally forgot my other journal passwords and crap so I decided to make a new one that I'll remember. So! um. Hi. Maybe I'll make this one friends only because then people will wanna visit my cooool journal and all that. Ahaha. Or maybe I'll just work on a layout for this thing, because honestly. Don't tell me this layout doesn't suck. So I'll go work on a layout, as well as an info banner.


Oh, and hi Fred! =]

Current Mood: bored
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